The dust goes on...

This garage build is something else. I'm not going to rant here, only to say, it is still not finished and at this rate unlikely to be done this week.

Unfortunately, with fibromyalgia, managing stress is an important factor in managing pain level, at least for me. I was diagnosed in 2004 after about a decade of doctor after doctor and a slew of tests. It was a relief to finally get the diagnosis; I actually thought I was going crazy and tried to tell myself I was not in the pain I was.

Now, after trying one thing after another, I know how to manage my daily schedule and keep things under control. However, when something disrupts that routine, especially for a long period of time, the fibromyalgia flares up and the pain can be excruciating to the point of incapacitation. I see my doctor yearly and have been fairly stable until this garage build.

I saw my doctor last Monday who was concerned at the state of my health. I have been having panic attacks and hid it from my husband until then. I have also started having a little trouble breathing. It feels like the walls are crushing in on me and I can't escape. I keep telling myself, this will be over soon. I distract myself my deep cleaning everything in sight. I have painted one room and now almost finished with the upstairs hallway and the stairwell. All this work, of course, creates more pain. The only thing that helps is the heating pad and a hot shower. Thank the Lord for hot water! :)

I turn all this over to the Lord every night and ask for His protection during the day. His hand is in this, on this and has always had, control. Thank you, Jesus. >^,,^<